find your sanity.

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[Private to Herrick]

(drawn out map of SF, with a red line drawn from Lycurgus' house to the Clinic)
Tu venis in media hora.

How do we feel about meeting tonight?
If not, tomorrow?

We should probably determine what to do concerning Helvius.

[Private to Jakob, Lycurgus, Sunni and Dillon]

I just left Ciardha's office.

Herrick crossed the borders to Shadow Falls at the time that Arcturus was putting them up, which has caused the lapse in Herrick's memory.

We have arranged to set up a smaller border within town for Herrick to cross and hopefully restore his memories. I'll let you all know when the date for that is established.

[private]

I had a nightmare last night in which I was in a hospital, where Sadie was of old age and lying in a bed. Somehow, despite all these years of medicine, my emotional state at the time within the dream wouldn't allow me to process what was wrong. I only knew she was sick.

And then she died.

I don't know if this is because I'm already emotionally stressed, but my subconscious is not assisting much.

[private]

I'm a fucking mess.

[private to Nathaniel Mauer]

Sadie Larson has informed me that you intend to 'do away with her kind' or something foolish of the sort.
If you come near my claim, or even speak to her again, I will happily make sure that you will not be able to preach again.

I have a claim. Her name is Sadie Larson.

And that is how I return to Shadow Falls.

It is somewhat odd to be back in this town, to be writing in this notebook. I assumed that after the war between the humans and the vampires, I would have become so disillusioned that this location would no longer become an appealing place for me to return.

There are reasons for this, of course. For those who cannot recall, I went away to Athens at the beginning of the war in order to maintain a stance of neutrality. Unfortunately, the rebellion expanded beyond expectation and I returned back to Shadow Falls in order to ensure that those who I care for were protected. When I returned, my laboratory was destroyed and the previous ten years of my research had been torched. Although ten years is a droplet in the years that I have lived, ten years remains significant to research, which moves at an exceedingly slow pace. The additional point that my research desired to improve the living conditions of humans made this predicament more intolerable.

I left at that point and moved to Vancouver, British Columbia until the rebellion came to a close. To say that my relationship with humans has weakened is an understatement. I am still a research geneticist, but I have concentrated the majority of my knowledge in medicine for medical treatment and work in hospitals.

As I'm writing this, I have yet to find a reason as to why I've returned. Probably a mixture of annoyance with humans and nostalgia (rare, for myself, in both circumstances).

Private to Jakob
Is it alright if I drop by to see you tonight?



Private to Herrick
In the time that I've been away, you've gotten a new favorite son? I'll have to work to change that. Do you have any time soon? I have many questions about the Great Volumnia That Didn't Fall Under Helvius' Hand.


Private to Volumnia
Would it be a trouble if I asked to see you?

I am a geneticist. I manipulate genes, it is a way of living for me.

So I present the following to those who are obligated to become pregnant. Should you choose, I am able to determine the sex, hair color, and eye color of your child. That is if you choose. I present the warning to everyone, and I will present the same warning. There are risks, and regardless of the centuries I have spent exploring the gene, they cannot be avoided. I do not wish to be lectured on playing God, or any other argument that you may want to present about volunteering my services. If you are morally opposed to the entire idea, that is not my concern. My only aim is to give the future pregnant women of Shadow Falls some type of control over their pregnancies, with added risks, should they choose to take that option.

I am also able to provide genetic screenings. It is a genetic diagnosis of what you are likely to expect from your children in the future (diseases, disorders). Again, this comes with risks, and I place them here. Should your child be diagnosed with severe illnesses, I cannot act upon it. It is the responsibility of the mother to take the case to the Council to argue over the welfare of the child. I am simply offering to provide information, but information is all I can provide, and not solutions.

That being said, I sympathize with you all. I duress that not every vampire is pleased with the announcement, and some, like myself, are rather opposed to it.

I'll be home from Spain soon. This pregnancy announcement makes me believe that I should just stay here. It's entirely against anything I advocate. They could have taken half of the children floating in rivers from China.
How are you taking the recent news, sweetheart?

Would you like to go away for a vacation? Just for a little bit?
The chaos ensuing between the vampires and humans makes me think it would be a good idea to get away for a little bit. Besides, Prague was too fun not to do it again. Just somewhere else.

You're the talk of the town- red panties and all. What antics have you been up to?
I also want drinks with you, soon. So much has happened since the last time I've seen you, and I'm suddenly itching to talk with you about it. Taking that offer to be a friend of yours.

I am the luckiest person in the whole world.
You can probably see me write this, but I don't really care.

Today is the day that you moved in with me! I refuse to forget, so I'm writing it down.
I'm so impossibly happy. You make me so happy.

[private to Sadie]
Little S!
Pseudo-papa is home. I missed you plenty!
[end privacy]

I'm home from Prague. After a while, your ability to stay focused and conduct science weakens. I felt that happen extremely quickly this time. I was pretty eager to come back to Shadow Falls.

Have I missed out on much?

It's funny how after one weekend, I can be so grouchy and childish. I feel like a four year old having a tantrum, "I want my Angel back!"

Work, work, work, so that I can come back to Shadow Falls sooner.

I told you I would fall asleep.
How was your day?

I'm flying to Prague tonight to decipher the genetic makeup of the child who is the owner of the blood that I've been analyzing all week. My old laboratory mentor from 2001 while I was in Moscow, Dmitri Volkova, is flying me in. Growing a beard to appear older to him is somewhat annoying. It's also unfortunate that I'll have to undertake the identity of Alexandre Savoie yet again while I'm there.

I have no idea how long it will take me to make any significant steps in research. I'm under the notion that a month will be my maximum before my name gets too imprinted in the case and I'll be forced to temporarily live in Prague (for the eighth time).

To my students, I will be marking your labs and will be submitting feedback via email when I find time. I ask that you be nice to the teaching assistant while I'm away.

I would greatly appreciate seeing you within the next twenty-four hours, if it does not inconvenience you.